Monday, 24 November 2008
Yesterday 23.11.2008
it was my 2 years ANNIVERSARY wif my ling.
we celebrate our anniversary at ling home.
We have spaghetti for our dinner.
I spend whole day wif my darling.
I'm very happy and can't believe that i can be wif my ling for such a long time.
Before i tot that our relationship will last for 5 days only.
That tym i'm very desperate want to have a boy.
So, i did accept him as my boyfriend.
Who know, after 5 days we still together, he really treat me good.
Nobody dote on me before and he is the only one who care me, love me, dote on me.
I'm very happy that he won't leave me alone when we did face a pro.
THat problem is very difficult to solve and i know he is very sad when im telling him that i wna break up wif him this is becuz my parent not agree us together.
I'm very down too that moment.
I know that i can't dump him lyk that cuz it is very difficult for me to dump him juz because he is a malay guy.
Once i did made a very big mistake.
I knew that i shouldn't made this kind of BIG MISTAKE.
I'm very regret what i had done toward him.
But i also dont know why i will suddenly msg him n ask for break up.
I'm not tried for having this kind of relationship that both of us need to hide when seeing each other.
I know ling will feel very sasak wnt that we need to hide everytym when we meet.
I ever ask ling that is he getting tired to be wif me cuz we need to hide when seeing each other n he told me that he is not.
HE wna be wif me till forever.
I'm very happy that he did plan for our future.
Juz because of problem btw my parent n us.
Ling ever met my father n tried to talk to my father that he really want me to be wif him.
However, at last the pro also not solve yet until now.
I'm here...
Would like to say some words for my parents and ling.
First of all i would like to say sorry to my parents that i did lie them.
I dont wnat to do this but once i told u guys the truth everythings will turn bad.
Father and Mother...
I'M SORRY.
I'm Very guilty for father motehr n ling.
I dont know what can i do anymore the only word that i can say is SORRY, i will still respect u guys if one day u guys really wna break relationship wif me.
To be honest.I'm scare to face the future.
But i really need to be tough to face the future.
I'm sure that everthing will be gettin worst for my future.
I'm very SOrry toward father n mother.
I know that i'm not a good daughter.
SORRY
To my ling, Ling i very happy to be wif ling till now n i wish that we really have our own family in future.
I still wanna be wif ling.
i know ling very dote on me even i done something wrong toward ling, ling also will forgive me.
ling never angry at me whenever i done something wrong towars ling I'm sorry that i always make ling angry n also i always angry at ling.
Ling i dote on ling
Ling i love you
I care ling
I cherish you
I know that the problem did make ling very down but i also dont know wht to do.
I still wanna be wif ling cuz ling you r the only 1 who really treat me good.
I hope that nothing gonna stop our relationship.
You are the only 1 that i love the most i will treat you juz lyk ling treat me for ths few years.
Ling, you are my KING forever in my heart juz lyk i'm your QUEEN forever in ling heart.
No one gonna stop our relationship Forever.
14:43
The day after my "A" Level examination. In the afternoon i met my ling.
We went bandar wif my ling mother and sister.
Around 2pm+ we straight went to city cuz ling mother wna go bank.
Then we went to gadong search for salon.
Ling sis wna go curl her hairs so i suggested Kathy Salon.
I have never been there but i have plan to do my hairs next years at there.
And so ling mother agree with it then asha do her hairs at there.
Actually purposely wna tarus ask bout the price for the hairs i wnna do for next year.
Finally i know wht is the price that i wna do for my hairs and so i do my decisison for doing my hairs at there. Ling, me and Ling mother's 3 of us waiting for asha bout 2hrs+. While waiting ling and me keep playing in the salon n ling mother's read magazine.
After Asha done her hairs. Me, Ling and Asha went to Escapade for having our dinner. We did have Idako, Wakame and many more for our dinner. We did enjoy it. I also saw Chole at escapade she is having dinner wif her sister n friends. While we r having our dinner ling mother went to SKH for buying some food and drinks for house use.
it's raining whole day in bandar after dinner we straight went home n ling mother n asha are in hurry cuz they wanna watch the Thailand movie in RTB2 n so round 8pm+ we reached home.
14:12
Saturday, 22 November 2008
Over!!!
It's OVER!!!
Finally it is OVER...
My BRAIN got burst for last 2 months (october&november) and now it's time to RELAX.
Lately feel so damn down don't know what had happen to me??? Very worry bout my result... I knw i can't do it.. It's really tough sitting for "A" Level Examination. I have made a wrong decision last year. I should give up Form 6 and choose for study in Technical school..
i have made a wrong decision
20:21
Tuesday, 11 November 2008
It's been a long time no blogging liao... Busy preparing exam lolzzz..
Hate Exam la... So damn difficult. Feel that cant achieve to masuk UBD la... Damn... Father too many hope frm me... He too confident that i will masuk ubd... I also want ahhh.. but i knw i cant la... Cuz so many paper taht i ve done so difficult lolz... juz lyk eco paper juz only 1 and the half ques i knw hw to ans the rest juz use sendiri idea... Hai~~ Damn suck la... the feeling lately...
14:00